A FOG THAT DOESN'T GO AWAY,IT JUST CLINGS TO YOU TAKING YOUR BREATH AWAY...THE MONOTONY OF EVERYDAY LIFE,THE QUIETNESS AND THEN YOU WISH SIMPLY FOR THE DAY TO CHANGE,A WISH FOR SOMETHING UNEXPECTED, WISHING THAT TODAY WAS A DIFFERENT DAY AND THEN YOU START TO BELIEVE IT IS A DIFFERENT DAY AND SOMETHING NEW WILL HAPPEN....WELL THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED TO ME YESTERDAY...
A FEW DAYS AGO,I WAS FILLED WITH ALL THE BRIMMING EMOTION TO GET OUT AND RUN AWAY BECAUSE THE ISOLATION WAS TOO OVERWHELMING THAT IT WAS KILLING ME FROM INSIDE
EVEN THOUGH I WAS UNDER THE VIEW OF MY MOTHER,SHE FEARFUL THAT I MAY DISREGARD THE ISOLATION THEY HAVE FORCED TO MY LIFE AND I FEARFUL OF HER TAKING BACK THE NEW FREEDOM TO LAUGH AND TALK LIKE ANY OTHER TEEN..
A FEW DAYS AGO,I WAS FILLED WITH ALL THE BRIMMING EMOTION TO GET OUT AND RUN AWAY BECAUSE THE ISOLATION WAS TOO OVERWHELMING THAT IT WAS KILLING ME FROM INSIDE
AND JUST YESTERDAY MORNING I THOUGHT "MAYBE IT WAS ME,EVERYTHING WAS NEGATIVE BECAUSE I WAS NEGATIVE"..AND I STARTED TO BELIEVE IT WILL CHANGE ONCE I AM POSITIVE..AND THAT IT WILL CHANGE....
EVERYTHING BEGAN AS A NORMAL DAY,AGGRAVATING AND SIMILAR TO ALL OTHER DAYS THAT USUALLY DEPRESSED ME,BUT SOMEHOW BY 11 am IT WAS PRETTY DIFFERENT,WE WERE GOING SOMEWHERE AND FOR ME ANYWHERE IS A GOOD THING THAT I HAVE BEEN LOCKED UP INSIDE THE SAME ROOM FOR SO MANY DAYS THAT I WAS LOOSING CONTROL OF MY MIND AND THOUGHTS...
THE PLACE WE WENT WAS AN AUDITORIUM AND PROVED TO BE A CHANGE OF ATMOSPHERE FOR ME..I WAS BACK AMONG A CROWD..THE DARK VEIL THAT SURROUNDED ME AT ALL TIMES REMOVED ITSELF..THERE WERE A LOT OF PEOPLE AROUND ME SUDDENLY..EVEN THOUGH IT WAS A NEW CROWD,THERE WERE LOT OF HAPPY AND SMILING ELDERS AND I SPOTTED FEW OF MY FRIENDS...I WAS STILL BEHIND MY MOTHER BOUND BY THE INVISIBLE CHAIN WANTING TO LAUGH OPENLY,TALK TO OTHERS OPENLY...
I AM AGAINST THE SUPPRESSIVE SYSTEM THEY PUT ME THROUGH EVERYDAY...I CAN LAUGH AND TALK LIKE ANY TEENAGER WOULD..I LIKE TO RUN TOO,FEELING THE WIND AGAINST MY FACE AND EVERYTHING GO AS A BLUR CAUSE IM HAPPY AND RUNNING FAST...I WANT A NORMAL LIFE OF ANY OTHER TEENAGER,MY PARENTS HAVE NO IDEA,HOW MUCH THEY ARE HORRIFYING MY CHILDHOOD...
AFTER FEW MOMENTS OF SITTING THERE WATCHING THE PROGRAM,ONE OF MY FRIEND TOOK ME AWAY,I WAS EQUALLY SCARED IF MY MOTHER WOULD STEP IN AND STOP ME FROM SITTING WITH HER..HER FACE WAS ANGRY,MILD LINES SHOWED ON HER FACE WHICH SHE TRIED TO MASK AMONG THE CROWD...
EVEN THOUGH I WAS UNDER THE VIEW OF MY MOTHER,SHE FEARFUL THAT I MAY DISREGARD THE ISOLATION THEY HAVE FORCED TO MY LIFE AND I FEARFUL OF HER TAKING BACK THE NEW FREEDOM TO LAUGH AND TALK LIKE ANY OTHER TEEN..
I LAUGHED YESTERDAY TRULY HAPPY ON THE INSIDE.....
SOMETIMES U ONLY REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE LOST ONLY WHEN YOU LOSE THEM...
TAKING A STEP FRONT
THANKYOU-SHIVAGAMI,GLORIA ,VIGNESH AND GLORIA FOR MAKING A DAY DIFFERENT...
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